Bittersweet #sarcoma 

  Yesterday was the worst day of my life. My wonderful, amazing, smiling and funny dad passed away. The pain is absolutely unbearable. My loving dad gave us an amazing life and for that, I will always be grateful. I have amazing memories of him which I will cherish forever.

So how can there be good news?

I woke this morning wondering how I would get through the next few weeks, especially this Friday when I was due to find out the results of my latest CT scan. My lovely nurse has just called to say that the results are in….and…..CLEAR!  

I’m relieved. So relieved. Relieved that I can focus on grieving for my daddy without cancer taking that away from me.

Good night daddy. Love you lots xx

16 thoughts on “Bittersweet #sarcoma 

  1. Mel says:

    I hope the ramblings of a stranger don’t seem strange or insincere. I have followed your blog for quite a long time when I was doing the terrible thing of using Dr Google after diagnosis. I am a private person who has kept my’journey'( hate that word) to only a few family and friends.Your blog has given me great strength and support- when I have needed somebody and found it difficult -which is why I wanted to thank you. It seemed even more important to let you know how much you are appreciated since your post about your lovely Dad. My heartfelt condolences to you and your family at this extremely difficult time. x

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  2. Ann Stokes says:

    So sorry to hear about your lovely dad Emma , I wish there was something I could say to make it better but that’s impossible. I’m delighted your results are clear that must be your dad watching you and keeping you strong for all your family. Xx ann x

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  3. Mary Astbury says:

    Oh Emma what sad but also happy news. I know what it’s like to lose a much loved dad, mine was just 55 when he fell asleep for the last time. Hold on to the happy memories and the love he had for you and you for him, they will help with loss you so deeply feel. Remember he’ll be up there watching over you always and he’ll be so happy that your results are clear.
    Take care much love xxxxxxx

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  4. Emma cullum says:

    Emma, I am so happy to hear the news of your scans but so sad to hear of the passing of your amazing dad, thoughts are with you and all your family at this time. You have been through so much over the past couple of years and yet your strength never ceases to amaze me keep going strong lovely lady and please pass my love on to the rest of your family.

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  5. Wynn says:

    I have been thinking of you all morning and how devastated you must be feeling. Words are not enough to help you with your grief. I’m so happy that your scans are CLEAR and you didn’t have that burden on your shoulders till Friday. Take care. God bless. xx

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  6. Michael McKay says:

    The ever present quality that we loved about Mr T, was his unbridled love for you all. He was never a man to put himself first, instead his entire family was his inspiration ! and he took great pride in your combined strengths. Ron embraced life, much like yourself, he was a winner, so are you ! I am sure he is smiling down on you ” chuffed ” your own resilience ! We are made-up that your results are clear, and are saddened at this grief that has overtaken you All ! Words are but words and sometimes, it will feel like nothing can ever fill that emptiness ! Tears are dried by Happy Memories and as a family and having known Ron, you will have many of them ! xx

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  7. bearleabatty says:

    You’re a gorgeous woman Emma. Your smile is infectious and your obvious love for your family, and them for you is a thing of beauty. I’ve admired you from over here in Australia, and have been proud to be related to you (even if it’s a stretch of a link) Overwhelming grief is ahead of you, but you will get through it, and always with the knowledge that as you said, your Dad gave you an amazing life. I feel your pain so raw and new as if it was my own, because i remember losing my dear Dad. Look after each other sweetheart. I wish I could give you a great big hug and be there to help you all through this. Love from
    Leanne xxx

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